Jack's room, after the funeral

[callmemajor]

Lorne practically pushes Jack into the room once the door is open, he pulls Jack tight against him, kissing him deep.


[ooc: Adult content in thread.]

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[callmemajor]

Lorne shakes his head. "That's not what I meant."

He thinks for a while, not quite sure how to put it. "What if I die, and I don't end up here? Not everyone does."

He props himself up on an elbow to look at Jack. "If I die...you'll never know. I'll just...stop coming."

[firstcptjack.livejournal.com]

Jack frowns. "Then I'll . . . I'll miss you.

"What do you want me to say, Evan? I don't know what happens. I don't know how it works. No one does."

[callmemajor]

"I know that," Lorne says, closing his eyes and sighing deeply.

"I don't want to know what happens to me. I want to know what happens to you. How long would you wait for me? When would you decide I wasn't coming back?"

He lays back down at Jack's side, curling up and laying his head on Jack's chest. "I don't want you to be alone."

[firstcptjack.livejournal.com]

Jack holds him tight and kisses his hair. "I don't know. Maybe I wouldn't. Maybe I'd wait for you until the day I left this place."

[callmemajor]

Lorne nods. "Okay," he says quietly, kissing Jack's chest.

[firstcptjack.livejournal.com]

Jack strokes Lorne's face. "I love you. I haven't been in love very often in my life. Or death," he adds with a faint smile. "But I love you very much and I want you for as long as I can have you."

[callmemajor]

Lorne smiles faintly and leans up to kiss him. "I love you too. Very much. And...I'd hate it if I was gone for an unusually long time and came back to find you with someone else, but..." He pauses, brushing Jack's hair from his forehead. "I don't like to think of you being lonely."

[firstcptjack.livejournal.com]

"Don't think that way," Jack whispers, kissing him. "I'll wait for you."

[callmemajor]

Lorne kisses him back and leans his forehead against Jack's. "If that's what you want."

[firstcptjack.livejournal.com]

"I want," Jack says, pulling Lorne closer against him, "you to be happy and healthy and with me as much as possible. Beyond that . . . who knows what the future will bring, Evan."

[callmemajor]

"Okay," Lorne says again. He cuddles close to Jack, kissing his collarbone. "You're right."

[firstcptjack.livejournal.com]

Jack kisses his hair. "Try to sleep a little. You've had a long day."

[callmemajor]

"Yeah," Lorne murmurs, settling in at Jack's side.

"Thank you, darlin'."

[firstcptjack.livejournal.com]

"Anytime, sweetheart." He kisses Lorne's forehead and combs his fingers through Lorne's hair to soothe him into sleep.

[callmemajor]

Lorne closes his eyes, curling closer to Jack. Very slowly, his breathing begins to even out, and he relaxes in Jack's arms.

[firstcptjack.livejournal.com]

Jack holds him tight, even when he's asleep himself.

[callmemajor]

[ooc: *hugs Jack for being so sweet*]

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

[ooc: Jack loves his Evan lots.

And my connection is being too fussy to log out and log in again. Grr.)

[callmemajor]

[ooc: Awww...and Lorne is feeling rather guilty after his conversation with Justin.

And *pets* Is okay.]

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

[ooc: Aww. He shouldn't though. That conversation had some legitmate concerns, iirc. Dating somebody dead isn't easy, unless you're dead too.]

[callmemajor]

[ooc: True. But it's never easy to have to admit that however much you may love someone, you wouldn't give up your job for them.]

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

[ooc: Jack would never ask him to or expect him to.]

[callmemajor]

[ooc: *nods* And Lorne knows that.]